You’ve seen the pictures. You’ve heard the audio. Some of you have even seen the video. I’d bet that you have no idea that my pussy is broken and just doesn’t work right. As a whole, it’s a good one. It gets wet, has a decent look about it, and gives me orgasms that you wouldn’t believe. But in comparison to some, I definitely feel defective.
My pussy can’t cum from penetration alone. My pussy can’t cum without direct clitoral stimulation. My pussy can’t readily have multiple orgasms. My pussy doesn’t squirt, it gushes. I know that none of these things are huge faults. But they are things that make me love my pussy just a little bit (and sometimes a lot) less than I should.
Roland and I have an amazing sex life. Easily the best, most satisfying sex in my entire life. Before him, it never mattered to me that I couldn’t climax from cock alone. I didn’t care because I just like to fuck and sometimes that’s all I want to do: just fuck. Orgasms have never been particularly easy for me. They’ve always involved work. But it was never an issue because I just liked to have sex for the sake of sex. However, there’s something about his cock that makes me want to cum. No, it makes me NEED to cum. I’ve never felt that with anyone else before. He just hits that spot. And sometimes, it seems like I’m almost there, that it’s just beyond my fingertips. I focus and concentrate on that feeling alone. I do everything within my power to will an orgasm to fruition, but so far it has been in vain.
I would not necessarily say it’s hard for me to get off. I prefer to say that I’m very specific. Under the right circumstances, I bring myself to climax in under 2 minutes. That’s usually with a vibrator but sometimes I can do it with my fingers alone. However, that involves direct, focused stimulation of my clit. It doesn’t necessarily have to be hard and/or fast. Sometimes it can be slow and gentle-like. But there must not be ANY deviations and it must be relentless. If I should allow my attention to stray, or if I try to change it up a bit, there goes my 2-minute window.
And this is where it gets tricky. Because after that point, the more stimulated I get, the harder it can be for me to cum. What a farce, right? This is the biggest problem if I want to have an orgasm while having sex. I don’t know about you guys, but when I have sex, there are LOTS of different things going on. Even in the missionary position, it’s never just repetition of the same thing over and over. This all makes for great sex, but makes it difficult to cum. Like I said, I have to work at it.
Depending on the situation, sometimes I’ll try to use my fingers on my clit while he’s fucking me. Sometimes it will even work. Usually, though, I am so hot and in the moment that I get way overeager and overstimulate myself. Which leads to frustration and makes me just want to cry. Roland tells me all the time to just calm down and relax. He’s never in any hurry and can last as long as I want him to. Even if he never admits it, I know it has to frustrate him a bit, too. More often than not, I just skip trying to play with my clit and go directly for my vibrator which is usually good and quick. If I’ve played with my clit first and gave up in frustration before reaching for the vibrator, then it’s still going to take lots of focus and work. Most of the time at that point, to help me along Roland will stop any thrusting and either just hold still or squeeze my nipples. He understands what an issue the over stimulation is, and the nipple pain is a different enough sensation that it can override that.
The trade off for all of this work is that the harder I work for my orgasm, the bigger it is and the longer it lasts. It’s still really good if I cum fast and easy, but it goes away fast and easy, too. When I’ve had to work really hard, I will probably have been alternating between holding my breath and hyperventilating. I don’t do it on purpose but it essentially gives me all the effects that one gets from breath play. I’m just doing it myself instead of being choked out by my partner. The result is that afterward I have full-body quakes/aftershocks that can last strongly for 5-10 minutes. I’ve had aftershocks as long as 20 minutes afterward also, albeit small ones.
Because I have to work so hard for my orgasms, even one more after that big one is next to impossible. In most cases, I am so sensitive all over my whole body that I don’t want to be touched at all. It’s like torture to me. I would probably have to be completely tied down and restrained if someone wanted to make me climax again immediately. Oh, and I had better be gagged also, because there is NO chance of me being quiet at that point!
When I have these big, hard-won orgasms, I almost always gush. Often I can gush beforehand if I get myself worked up enough, because an orgasm isn’t required to make it happen. And I can gush more than once and sometimes gush even more after I’ve cum. It can be very wet and messy. But on very few occasions has it been anything concentrated enough to be considered a squirt, in my opinion. That’s what I consider squirting, a concentrated stream akin to urinating. That’s usually what I see in porn, anyway. Mine is just a sudden huge deluge of wetness. But if it’s a matter of muscle control, I might try to see if I can learn to make it a stream.
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